I have been having a pity of sorts with myself because at the moment I'm sad to be single. It comes and goes in waves and lately it's been a major low. I think it's largely in part that EVERYONE around me has a special someone. I just need a place where I can let it out.... so you may want to skip this whole post all together... consider this your warning!
I feel like that no matter how hard I try to be funny or try to be pretty I'm man repellant. Some people say 'oh when you stop trying it will happen'. Well I don't think that's going to happen or even when I'm fine with being single NOTHING happens! Or I'm told 'just be yourself' and obviously that is not working either.
I can't help but think it's me.... There has to be something so wrong with me.... that's the only thing that makes any sense. I have been told that I also have high expectations and that they are unrealistic.... I guess wanting a guy to have a stable job, be pleasant, and for grins and giggles not have a million facial tattoos makes me have 'high expectations'.
If this is what my life has come to then I just want to pick myself up, swear off of the human race, and live in a cave with a million cats.
I have tried online dating with disastrous results. I actually signed up on eHarmony..... biggest joke ever! I'm getting matched with men in their 50's or unemployed 19 year olds. If it's supposed to be a whole 'scientifically' proven way to find love then I guess I do have high expectations.
Apparently, God, the universe, and the puppeteer who runs my life all say that I'm destine to be single.
Ok... it's out and I feel better.
Onto music Monday: Love stinks
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